About

Who is this nut?

I am a shy but head-strong and determined 30-year-old living in Southern California who happens to have bipolar disorder. Yah, minor detail. I am a mom, work in the advertising world, and nearly defined to-a-T if you look up Aries in all those astrology books (minus the leadership…totally suck at that). I am drawn to the moon, and feel at home with water, am a bit obsessive about my gym time (love the sweat, enjoy the burn), and love sex.

Books are my friends - I have read at least 20 in the past two months. Music is my cocoon - it soothes, pumps and excites me, and I sing without shame.  A high percentage of my post titles come from song titles or lyrics because they often influence my thoughts, how I write.

I may be single, but my I am not without meaning, and my life is full of passion because that is the only way I know how to live.

Why Saferwaters?

When it came time to select a domain, something new, to start fresh, the song Saferwaters, by Chevelle, was in my head. It has been there for months and continues to be there. To me, it’s my story, and my way of saying it doesn’t matter how ignorant the world may be, I exist. I’m not “crawling back to sea” but am moving away from the people and negative aspects of my life; I am doing just the opposite of what the song speaks of and am evolving.

“Saferwaters”

This city’s saving grace
But whoever knows, nobody knows
Why he’d roll the eyes back
Why he’d roll those eyes, those heartless eyes

Well I won’t pretend to lie
Once more protect my blinded sight
You’d say
For I came from a fish you mock the place where I exist and live.

That world is calling
So I’m crawling back to sea
Against the surge of waves that
Held us in that ancient grip beneath
Retreat to safer waters

Still learning what chaos kills
But whoever cares, nobody cares like you
Why we’d abandon time, just shut the door
Why we’d go to the wall, claim less is more

This city’s saving grace
But whoever knows, nobody knows